I need to find a better way to manage my energy levels. I have managed to organise the random ideas I have into some semblance of order so that I can start making some progress on them and still no progress has been made.
The main problem seems to be that when I have the time, I don’t have the energy. I have many ideas and am deeply envious of the type of people that have the time and the energy to follow up on their ideas. Some annoy me as they seem to make a living with freelance projects and have managed to have sufficient income from this to indulge their creative desires. This annoys me because I don’t think I can do that with all the additional commitments for mortgages and kids and a list of things that drink money faster than I seem to be able to earn it. As such I work earning as much as I can and when I do have the time to sit down in front of the computer to start on one of my many outstanding projects I barely have the energy to reply to a few simple e-mails, never mind work out how to generate complex geometrical compositions from programmatic interactions of basic geometric figures.
All of these people that I am envious of can’t be that lucky though. Some quite clearly have other jobs and families and still manage to find the time and the energy to pursue their dreams. This gives me some hope that there is a way to find a way of properly aligning the times when I can make space for some of my pet projects and the times when I have good energy levels.
I thought some late evening work would be good but I am not the night owl I used to be any more and there are too many distractions available until the small hours of the morning (TV on or off there are others in the house and the nagging feeling that I should go to bed cos I need to be up in the morning just conspires against me). The next thing to try is to get up in the morning before any one else, before I need to get to work and try and get at least half an hour on one project while I have my morning coffee. Not sure if it is going to work at all as I am notoriously bad at getting up in the morning unless I have to (mainly due to staying up all night watching crap on the telly half asleep) but I think it is worth a try.